a deep deep deep ache in ur heart ya know
“when you kiss it feels like love it always feels like love and suddenly, somebody is in love with your laugh and your eyes the way you eat spaghetti the way your smile is always crooked. They’re in love and maybe you’re someone who should be loved (someone who deserves it) But then there’s the tidal wave after three years or two months or six months and four days, when suddenly they look at you and your laugh isn’t anything special and the way your eyes line with laughter at the sides no longer does anything for them It’s falling and it’s screaming and it’s then why the fuck did you say all those things in the first place, oh god, oh my god, it’s becoming the one they used to love or at least you think because well you’re not really sure how they felt not anymore but (they had to have meant it, right? right?) It’s nostalgic and addictive and it’s your ripped up heart on the ground it’s remembering the way crooked smiles used to make them laugh and now makes them look away”
— (via loveserum)
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